Argh and stuff

I so do not want to go to work tomorrow. I ended up not going to the visitation tonight because now my sinuses are so backed up I cannot even hear out of my left ear. Yeah, things are just great around here. This afternooon I picked daughter and her cutie pie boyfriend up from church. Do you know how you can tell he is a good boy? He carries her trumpet for her! Now, keep in mind he has to haul around his trombone, but still, he carries her trumpet too. Chivalry is not dead folks. Finally, she got herself a little gentleman. Of course, they are in 7th grade and I can tell you right now it will not last. It is rare these days to fall in love at such a young age and have it last forever. Kids today have such short attention spans. I laugh at these kids with their "I Love Yous" because truly, they do not even come close to knowing what that means. I mean, this whole boy/girl thing is totally new to them and what they "love" is all the attention. I know my daughter does. She told me a story today of how some boy picked her up on his shoulders today at school and ran around with her draped accross his neck threatening to put her in the garbage can. She tried to sound frustrated, but the whole while she was smiling which makes me realize she really enjoyed all the attention she was getting. When I was straigtening her hair tonight we had a great talk about how all of the middle school kids were acting and how everyone thinks they are all in love, etc. She is such a smart girl. She told me that it was fun to say, but all in all she didn't understand love (do any of us really?) and that she felt she would probably not know what it was until she was much older. She also told me that she really likes to get to know a person before she "goes out" with them (although they don't go anywhere at this age), and she wasn't like most girls that just wanted a boyfriend (and there are boys like that too, they just want t girlfriend - gasp!). She really wants to know the boy and make sure he is someone she can relate to and has something in common with. But as for real love, she knows this stuff right now is just puppy love and infactuation, and the good stuff comes later. This is just the warm up. I admire her for being like she is. Strong, confident and very sure of who she is. She is much stronger and smarter than I was when I was her age. I got my heart broken easily and fell for any boy that would give me the time of day. She is not like that at all. With her, you have to be worthy and if not, then that is it.

Oh, to be young again.

Now, more medication needed.

Where ya been?

Okay, more like where have I been? You know how life goes. You get busy and caught up in other stuff and before you know it, you are ignorning things you should be paying attention to. That's how it's been here lately. Teenage drama has simmered down and things are getting back to normal. Work is very busy and it's my day off today. I spent most of it sleeping since I do not feel very well due to a high pollen count and screaming sinuses. I did however, make it out for a walk. I am doing a 3k on Saturday and it's going to kill me since I haven't been walking or working out at all like I use to. Warmer weather is upon us and I am hoping that will motivate me to get back out there. After all, swimsuit weather will be here before you know it...ugh.

I am trying to decide if I will be attending a viewing tonight. The father of one of the girls I work with died in his sleep on Saturday night. I hate it for her because I know how it is to lose your father. I think I have spoken about my father on here before and my feelings about him. He was all I had when I was growing up after going from family to family (stepmothers) and him being so blinded by love and what he wanted life to be, that he could not see I was being neglected and abused by a couple of the stepmothers I had. My life was definately not easy, but it made me the person I am today. I guess that is why I am such a protective parent, because I know how easily it is to screw up a kids life. My kids are so fortunate to have loving parents that really do care for them and have lived their lives basically unscathed. We care about our kids so much and the ones that are now grown (21, and 19), tell us frequently that they know they are blessed and they love their lives and although we didn't let them do some of things that some other parents let their kids do, they are better for it. That makes you feel good. I hope my daughter feels the same when she gets older. As for now, she is trying to find herself and discover what she is capabale of. She is capable of of quite a lot. One thing I have noticed about her throughout her young life is that she is closer to guys than she is girls. She has many more guy friends than girl friends. At first I didn't know where she got this, but actually it's history repeating itself. See, I guess since I grew up mainly with my dad, and when my dad did remarry the perfect woman, she had 3 boy and together they had a son, so therefore, I grew up around more guys. Same here with daughter. Not only does she have 4 uncles, she also only has 2 brothers, no sisters. So, like me, she has more boys in her life than girls. I think that is why sometimes she and I do not understand each other. Also, I think that with guys, there is much less drama than girls (well, some guys anyways). Guys aren't constantly competing with one another how girls are, and guys will tell you straight up how they feel. That's how she is too.

Well, anyways, I am not sure why that has anything to do with me attending the viewing tonight. But, I guess lately I have been looking deeply into why things are the way they are and how history frequently repeats itself. Life if funny.

Get out of my life!!!!

But can you drive us to the mall?

Okay. This is how my daughter is right now. I have been informed that I am too nosy and in her business. I have been giving this very much thought and I am trying to figure out if I am too nosy or just protective. This school year my daughter has been through several things that have made me this way. We started out our school year by her being told to go kill herself on her website by a very not nice girl. This girl told her to go cut herself because no one would shed a tear. She also called her ugly and emo, which she is neither, but she had a very hard time with this because she had never been spoken to like this. She had some couseling for this episode which she recovered from nicely when she realized the girl that said all of this was trash and must have some serious issues herself. She was told these things because the little evil girl liked daughter's boyfriend. Next, daughter's little boyfriend (same boy) was doing some things to raise red flags and daughter did not seem to see them. It was hard to sit back and watch, but at the point that I felt my daughter was being manipulated to the point I felt it might put her in a position she was not old enough to handle, I stepped in (examples: prentending to be his older brother online to get information out of her, forwarding his cell phone calls to her so that all of his calls go to her phone, befriending the girl that told her to go kill herself, etc.). Recently, (very recently), this same boy threated her, himself and also told her this, "what if I took a gun to school?" - She was so scared for him. Of course we reported him to the school, he was suspended, and in my opinion, that was a cry for help and I hope he gets it. This has been a lot for a teenage girl to handle in a short period of time. All of this has caused me to check on her often, curious about who she is talking to, what is going on, etc. I am not doing anything like reading notes or anything like that, but supposedly I am being nosy and driving her crazy. She is a good girl and has not given me any reason to not trust her, but I feel I cannot trust some of the kids around her. She has wonderful and great friends and I do trust them, however, I also know there are some really messed up kids out there and those are the ones that scare me. I think I am just feeling protective of her since she has been through so much already. She is strong and seems to have handle all of this wonderfully, but I guess I am scared for her. I feel like her innocence is being stripped from her and I worry about that. I also am now worried this boy might do something where as before, I thought he was just playing games with her. Am I being nosy or protective? At what point do I let go a little after we recover from this latest ordeal? And, why should we feel bad about reporting someone that lost it enough to threaten himself, her and her school?

One day I hope she can forgive me for caring. If not, oh well, I am just doing my job.

Just where did I put my.....

Self? Where have I been you ask? Well, just busy with work, home, and more teenage drama complete with my daughter having to turn a friend in for threatening to do some horrible things. It has not been that fun a week here at the Ok house. Acutally, everything has not been Ok. I just wonder why when you have such a good, sweet child that truly cares for others, why does she get herself tangled in such stuff? I think I have come the the conclusion that since she is a good, sweet and caring child, she may just care too much. You know how that is? When someone is having problems and you try to help them and they drag you right into their mess? That's what has been going on here and frankly I am tired of it. I hate that I even have to consider telling her to harden her heart and not try to be everyone's friend when obviously, they make it hard to be their friend. Isn't that sad?

Why does she have to harden her heart?

Oh yeah, and it's sleeting outside. I want snow!

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Twenty One

That is the age of my oldest now. He turned 21 on Monday, the same day he was flying home. He wanted to try out his new age and ordered a double Jack and coke at the airport. He was disappointed. It cost him eleven bucks. I told him bad influences are usually expensive. Oh well, live and learn. So far we have had a great time while he has been home. We have been hanging out every day - well, the days he is not hanging out with girls. I miss that kid so much. Although, now that he is 21, I guess he is not much of a kid anymore.

He still looks like a baby.

Happy Birthday Sailor!

I ain't sayin she's a Gold Digger

I. cannot. get. that. song. out. of. my. head. You would think by now it would have been replaced by something with more class, but no.

Nothing much going on lately we continue to have freakishly warm weather. I just want a little snow is that too much to ask? Obviously it is. Work is going good. It's been very busy for some reason, not sure why. This should be our slow time since a new semester already started, but I guess people have nothing else better to do than to look for a job at a University or something. Tomorrow is my day off - hurray! Hubby and I have planned a big day since he is taking off too. First on our agenda will be to figure out why the friggin dryer went out last night. It turns on, it flips the clothes around playfully and mockingly, but it doesn't dry a dang thing. *sigh* After that we plan to take a trip to the orthodontist and look at the mold of my sweet daughter's teeth and sit patiently while we are told what needs to be done and how much we should mortgage the house for to pay for the whole thing. *more sighing* I know things get better. Don't they? On a happier note. My younger son finally landed himself a job. It's not one he will keep forever, but since he is a student, he really only needs part-time. This place will work around his school schedule and he will have a little extra pocket money, so this is good. Also good is my oldest son will be here next Tuesday morning for a whole week. Can't wait.

Did I work out today?

NO!